my sweet escape

It’s not easy to let your love life go on as well. Like what i’m suffering from. Thought about the person that never gave thoughts about you. Yeah, it hurts, hurts a lot. Once you’ve been thinking that you must to do the same, but you have no power to do it. You let yourself suffering. You love him more than yourself, that’s so cruel.

I was thinking about it so many times, but i’ve got nothing. It feels like the satan’s circle (yea you named it), one day you can go up, not so long you let your feeling down again. And it happen for so many times. 

On the other side, when you’ve been single for so long, you know it was crazy to be like that. You think there are a lot of (more) important things that you can do than waste your time to think about him. Life is good without love. You can enjoy your life, even there’s still a problem (but not about love). SO YOU PROUD OF IT, HUH?

But as the victims, you can enjoy all the pain. Let yourself being suffer from it. Life feels so cruel, you can’t live without him, life is not perfect without him. So terrible. But this is what i feel now. So stupid, huh? But honestly i don’t know how to deny it, how to let it gone from my mind. It feels so strange, so weird, so unfair.

Yeah, i am suffering. Help :(